Last of the year post for me. Not a fashion post also. A year round up. If you will.
This has been a extremely tough year. A lot of thing have happened.
A old love leaving. A new flame Burned out before its time. It has not been the greatest of years. Tho i have tried very hard to keep things together, I have failed.
I was with my partner for 20 years. ( in the real world ). A very long marriage. It took me across the world. It was not all roses and delights. But it was right.With the recent ending of this. It has shook me to the very core. I’ve been beside myself with all manners of thoughts and feelings about this. It is not something that i would wish upon anyone.
Though i know a lot of people go through it also. I feel your pain and am sorry that you had to endure it also.
“The new flame that burned out way too soon.”
Things have been ok in SL. sort of… i met a lot of really nice people. Some asshats. But mainly it has been good. I did meet someone in sl. But the time was just not right.
I was unable to be the person that i am. It ended .Now there is little to no chance of that being able to be rekindled. Right now, i do not think it would be wise to even attempt.
I can’t say what will happen in the future. But i am more inclined to say No to any relationship attempts.
With the amount of mind games and Chinese whispers that have been played. I feel that i would rather not participate in such things in the future.
Not that i have bad feelings towards anyone. But it is not something i’d feel comfortable doing anymore. I would rather walk away from all of that.
As i no longer care what people think of me. Weather they wish to believe the truth or what made up story they have in their heads. It is all irrelevant, This door is now closed.
“Fake friends Who are so quick to stab you in the back, if you do not conform to their way of life.. instead of accepting you/growing with you.. Are no friends of mine… Fuck em..” – Jelly 12/23/2018..
” To 1019 and beyond……..”
Who knows what is going to happen. Very shortly i will be moving countries again ..
Not the first time for me to do this. But at least i’m finally going home.
Though i never understood when a friend had told me, 21 yrs ago.. ” Home is anywhere”.
He was right. Home is anywhere . If you are comfortable … For the past 20 yrs i have not been comfortable.
I do want to get back into making items for Second Life. It is somewhat of a passion to build and create new mesh items.
With the small fan base that i have acquired over the years it is a pleasure to bring these new items to the world.
I hope i will see you in the second half of 2019. As the start i am unsure i will have a computer to do anything on. Or internet…. Please don’t forget me.. as i will not forget you.
I hope you all have a wonderful Xmas and a extremely safe New year.
Thank you for taking a moment out of your day to read.